underneath it all , there's an endless story...

i love to sleep & the refrigerator is my bestfriend. laugh for no reason & smile because i deserve to. i cry when i get frustrated & hate to be comforted. good at being bad but even better at being good. i look absolutely dumb in hats so i hate the winter. music is my sanity & dancing is therapy. i over-analyze situations often upsetting myself. know how to forgive but i can't forget. i compare bacon to oxygen & try to eat some everyday. terrified of horror films but i love romantic comedies. i acknowledge my flaws & believe that is perfection. lives for basketball season & wishes baseball would be done away with. eager to grow up but i wanna be young at heart forever. can cook a nice meal although fast food frequently calls my name. believes loving & losing is better than never loving. i don't think i'm beautiful but i love me some me. very impatient but i'll wait for anything worthwhile. i'm a homebody but by no means a party pooper. loves company but desperately needs 'me time' to restore myself. the epitome of a dweeb & cool because i want to be. i spend at least 15 mintues looking for the remote when it is in my hand & my glasses when they are on my face. would do anything for a friend & give my life for family. the meaner i am the more i adore you. can't tolerate staying in the mall for a long period of time therefore shopping is a difficult task. doesn't believe in forever because i don't know anyone who has been around that long.loves love but i don't think it loves me. frigging moody & lastly emotional beyond popular belief.

i understand i don't wear my heart on my sleeve for the world to see , but that doesn't translate into me not having any feelings. & this is often what people assume about me =[ ...lately it has been slightly irritating because when i try to express myself it goes unheard or unacknowledged & not to mention "non-believable" smh. i sometimes wonder am i that hard to read?? or even that hard-hearted. being known as 'mean' or 'evil' isn't the ideal emotion i want to put forth but i just don't know anymore. when i begin to open up , it all comes crashing down...
there is so much more to me then you could ever imagine..

one of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you cannot utter...