love is blind...

sigh..where do i begin??

you see or hear about a lot of things on television or in movies that you don't even give a second thought about because they are not at your front door or affecting your everyday life. & even when life does present you with a serious issue that seems 'movie like' , you brush it off because this is reality right?? exactly..THIS IS REALITY , shit is real. never take anything for granted.

well an issue showed up at my front door , ringing my doorbell around 9am last wednesday. a friend of mine had gotten into an argument with her boyfriend & he put his hands on her..sounds simple right?? we all know that happens very often , it is unfortunate but it happens. nowadays a lot of females fight back or even start the altercation , so that begins to be the "normalcy" of their relationship. AGAIN..not saying that it is right , but it is an common issue that is out there. anywho , she hadn't been here in a while because her & dude were so involved (living together & whatnot) but i just figured she needed a friend..someone to talk to so she came to camz&i. one whole side of her face was swollen , big blood clot in her eye , bruises all over her arms & some on her legs. after listening to what happen i'm like wtf dude really went ballistic over some bullshit at that. i never seen her like this , her whole aura was different..this wasn't the same chick i used to party , joke & spend all my time with. but i just brushed it off as 'hey relationships sometimes change people'. but ma&i cheered her up , gave a the pep talk & tried to see what she wanted to do about the situation.


so dude is calling her , they speak & he giving her the 'look what you made me do' speech. he goes by her house looking for her , at first she ignores it then she tells him she is at my house so they can talk.he still blaming her & hasn't even apologized or acknowledge the fact that he hurt her & as small as she is could have done fatal damage. at the end of the day i felt like she understood he wasn't sorry , that he is not what she needed to be involved & that this i NOT would love is. thought everything was ok.

got a call tuesday morning & she crying & screaming cuz they had another situation & she decided to leave the house & he is following her. told her to come here. now part of me is asking 'why did you even go back???' but i was foolish because all the signs were there that she was going to. now having a minor situation myself & having another friend that went through something i realized this was NOTHING like our situations. she needed more support , more guidance but all in all she needed (&still needs) help. it is more then just 'having it bad' for him. he is in her head making her feel like less of a person when she without him. beautiful girl , self-esteem shot. lifetime movie but right here at my front door , better yet...my living room. reality says ok this is the third incident (of my knowledge) she can't keep going back because injuries are going to keep getting more serious..severe..or even deadly. thinking whyyyy sooooo extreme nik?? because thats was next in the plot of this very REAL movie in my head that is turning into REALITY.

i REFUSE to let her go back..yes everyone makes their own decisions because ultimately it is their life..but fuck that , don't care what i have to do. can't watch someone get hurt like that. some would say let her be stupid & go back if she wants to..but there is wayyyyy more depth to the situation then being smart or stupid & it took all this to make me realize that. this was mental & emotional. soooo so far distance is ideal because she feels like if she is here she is going to go back. leroy&i did everything we could to help her leave. chillin in west palm beach & soon miami with a friend =] but i know it isn't over yet but i'm hoping for the best & i'm willing to help as much i can.

i learned from my own situation..learned a little more from another friends' situation but i learned the most from this one. lessons in love , life & friendship that i will never forget. & to those who already come to me when they need me & those who ever need me..my front door is ALWAYS open. just try not to show up so early lol just kidding =]


...and it could take over your mind