before i lay me down to sleep , i think...

good day , had fun at wills' house as usual..they're very entertaining. BODAT! lmfao. i was somewhat 'blahh' though cuz i'm extremely tired , haven't been to sleep since saturday morning & it is monday morning fml. soooo...currently putting blueprint3 , ready & some other random songs on my iPhone so i can have something to listen to in the car tomorrow. also eating , which i have been doing non-stop since like thursday lol. anything i see i go in. yapping w. dg on aim.

speaking of dg...we had a nice little conversation this afternoon. even though she was umm kinda slizzed , she made some valid points lol. she was kinda telling me about myself like a old wine-o. basically if i don't go on a 'date' soon , very soon..she is going to kill me lol. i told her the guys that are pursuing me aren't my type. but according to 'relationshipologist' dr. miller (lmfao she gonna kill me) i should at least go out with someone once before i completely write them off. she believes i judge a book by its cover. i'm not saying she is wrong but ugh you know me. i agree w. her to some extent but these dudes that are hitting me up aren't catching my eye like that. & the common issue w. most is ego. ugh & i despise starting over lol i'm lazy. soooo until something alluring comes along i will continue to go on dates w. beans , dg & mnb & maintain the exhilarating relationship i have w. me , myself & i. blahhhh sounds like a blast right..mm hmm i know lol

btw..don't remember if stated this or not but jay-z album is good. heavy rotation along w. trey. gonna checkout raekwon new album later today.

i'm in love w. the idea of love. yeah i know i'm such a sucker for love ass nucca lol..but seriously..dg&mnb are on the yellow brick roads to relationships. they have some good dudes on their sides & after all they have been through w. guys...i'm happy to see them happy. i'm also glad to see ma , cel & mani living contently , he is ALWAYS around for his new family & you can't say that about a lot of fathers. there hasn't been a night or day that ma has been without him. he does his part & they seem happy. good stuff lol , i hope everything remains stable with everyone. i'll live vicariously through them while beans&i still hunt haha.


MTVs' VMAs' was good..kayne is a mess lol , i'm sure yall heard about his antics..ladygaga&pink are some bad bitches smh.


"feel like a weight has lifted , how can i repay you help me understand , currency ; a fistful of tears i can afford , fight of your life is not the cost , time will reveal all along you're the one who is losing..cause i go insane , crazy sometimes , trying to keep you from losing your mind , open yours eyes , see what's in front of your face , save me my fistful of tears..you can make it disappear boy , all you gotta do is raiseup , faceup , stayup , all things will heal , we'll feel it with a kiss from the skies , don't you let it go."

maxwell - fistful of tears... I LOVE IT!

don't come around tryna gas me up , i'm on E "/