lesson learned....

i probably listened to that song (by alicia keys) about 50 times today. it hit the spot...like really.


its been a while...& boy oh boy do i have a lot to say lol. lets see if i can make some long stories short , plus i'm kind of tired. everything w. me is coooooool. goodtimes..goodmoods. it is when i try to take on the issues of others that things get rocky , sigh yall know me..always trying to help out smh.
but umm..
- work is great...putting in hella hours , co-workers cool as hell..they make my day go faster=D
- home life is good...no complaints just wish leroy cooked rice w. the damn food sheesh!! & ma&mani have been here all week=)
- love life is blahh&dry as usual lmao still not involved w. anyone , but its cool..i'll know when i'm ready. i'm working on me (for now , i ain't tryna have these cold sheets all winter hehe)
- friends..hmph that is a touchy subject at the moment , these broads are crazy!! (yall know who yall are)

sooo i got tattoo number 5 last weekend=) my birthday in roman numerals across my shoulder. pain wasn't bad at all..only hurt right on my shoulder bone.

hmm , my phone is pretty quiet today , but shh!! let me not jinx it.

yall probably already noticed..but i'm backtoblack!! & long lol. wanted a change , i like it. but yall know how that goes smh it will be totally different soon. i dyed&permed my hair in the same night...i know I KNOW , i'm losing my damn mind. but so far so good , nothing fell out haha. & then i went to go see chris rock's new movie 'goodhair' made me never want to perm my hair EVER AGAIN but the chances of that happening are slim =)


mymani&i watching some tv =D
omg i love this little girl!! it makes no sense.

soca party at spc , goodtimes.
danced right out of my clothes!! lol just kidding.
but my damn shirt/skirt kept falling off lol talk about a wardrobe malfunction.these two BROADS next to me annoy every fiber of my being!! but i love them. would do anything for them. but i'm ready to kill them. they breakup to makeup tooooo much. & i don't like to see friendships end when they can be salvaged. especially when the beef is petty. so now these two jerks are talking. so now i'm not caught in the middle , which is ALWAYS my postion when it comes to their beef. but on another note i feel like i'm losing another person i felt was my friend & was cool because of a very awkward&bad situation. i will definitely still speak to her but it is wayyy different now because our common link (ness) is gone. still love you mnb=) holla if ya need me lol.
but as far as lessons i have learned goes..hmph. i can't take on my friends burdens. not gonna happen anymore. NO WAY. because when shit goes south my phone is ringing of the hook & i'm tired of it. i definitely DO NOT feel appreciated for the things i do for some people & now i won't do them. i love my friends but if this ends our relationship then its cool because honestly..i don't need it. i am sooo not trying to sound like a bitch but i can't take it anymore. statements like "nikki only does things on her time" linger in the back of mind when that is HARDLY ever the fucking case. but it is now...MYTIME it is.


TIRED...TO BE CONTINUED...