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whoa , it's been forever. due to lack of a computer of course...i would never disappear for no reason lol ")

i just finished watching some youtube vids of the MJ memorial , very nice...lately i've been all cried out but stevie wonder brought tears to my eyes with "I NEVER DREAMED YOU'D LEAVE IN SUMMER" everyone else was nice as well ...so now i'm just listening to some mary & trying to collect my thoughts.

ugh , i was trying to price some tickets for the jamie foxx 'blameit' tour but he doesn't have any shows in the ny/nj area. i was looking forward to that , maybe a road trip who knows.


nikki is happy ") ...maybe not all day everyday but at some point during the day I AM HAPPY which is better than what i could say in the past. ness&i been ripping & running lol keeping busy & very entertained for like the past week. i'm officially drained & i refuse to step foot outside tomorrow , cleaning & laundry all day.

still on the jobhunt ugh. but i reevaluated that idea but i'll get into that later.

lovelife...once again non-existant. it's just crazy when something you thought was going to work , doesn't. i mean like doesn't even come close. but no expectations ; no disappointments RIGHT??

iNEED to go to the beach "/

something that has been on my mind heavy..

friend (noun) a person you know well and regard with affection and trust
. . . .
friend (noun) an associate who provides cooperation or assistance

i found these in the dictionary on my phone. to me these are two totally different definitions. how many friends do you have??

i'm not tired but i'm tired of thinking so i guess i'll get some sleep...after a snack & some dr.pepper of course.

satisfy my soul.